I know I just blogged like 10 hours ago, but this is my blog and I can write in it as much as I want. I had plans of cleaning the apartment tonight so that I could spend all day tomorrow finishing up all my little projects. Well, that didn’t work out as planned. I got a migraine & felt miserable, so my hubbie cooked me dinner & then I took some Excedrin & laid down. My migraine is gone, but also it’s 1 am and I am fully awake. Issue.. Sorta yeah, when my favorite show is on at 10 and the odds of me being up for it are quickly growing more and more slim.
I tossed & turned in bed for a few hours, continually waking Gabe up to tell him a random thoughts I had, usually involving the way I’d like our future living room to be painted, you know VERY important things. Well, 12 rolled around and I began to feel guilty for waking him up when he has to get up at 5 for baseball workouts, so I came to the couch to journal for a bit, then I went through and read some of my journals from 2010.
What a freaking year it has been, graduated college, got married, lost my Aunt Peggie, moved out and I am continually learning life’s lessons, all in 1 year. PHEWF. I am so grateful for most of the things above, actually all of them except for my Aunt Peg dying. Over the course of the last 2 years, I’ve lost 3 family members, and they have been the first deaths of family members that I can remember actually having a relationship with. My Grandma died when I was like 6, but I don’t really remember much of it. Over the last year I lost my Nana, Uncle D and Aunt Peggie.
While I am learning the concept of the fact that life is somewhat of a cycle, people are born and people die, with a whole lot of things in between. I’ve come to grasp that entire situation pretty well, except for the dying part. I hate the fact that time ends, everyone dies and everyone goes to either Heaven or Hell.
When I was younger, I just thought that if you were a good person, you were nice to animals and you gave candy to kids, you would go to Heaven. I also thought that if you were a mean person, you killed someone or if you said bad things, you would go to Hell. (Isn’t life great when you’re young and everything is that easy?)
Now that I’m 22, I realize that you can give all the children in the world candy and be the nicest pet owner to walk this planet, and you can still go to Hell. Subsequently, you can murder someone or curse up a storm and still go to Heaven. Doesn’t that sound so twisted and harsh? But it’s so, so, so very true.
Just because you call yourself a Christian doesn’t mean that you will go to Heaven. Just because you pray to God every so often doesn’t mean you will go to heaven.
At Church this Sunday, the message was on the fact that just because you are a “good” person, doesn’t mean that you will go to Heaven. If you are a Christian (meaning that you believe in Christ, and you believe the Bible to be the book of God), that means that you believe that Jesus is the only way to God, the only way to ETERNAL LIFE, that you must follow Jesus and do as He did (John 14:6). This goes for being Catholic, Baptist, Methodist, WHATEVER!!!
It says in the BIBLE, that Jesus is the only way. It also says in that very same Bible that is sitting in the back of the Church pews that all cowards, unbelievers, murderers, as well as the LIARS, IDOL WORSHIPERS and SEXUALLY IMMORAL will go to HELL. I know that sounds harsh and mean, but it’s just the TRUTH.
How much does it suck to think that due to the fact that you won’t put your pride aside, you could end up in Hell, or that you refuse to let go of past hurts, you could end up in Hell. What about the fact that you’re simply “having too much fun right now”- you could end up in Hell. I don’t know, just doesn’t seem worth it to me. No one can be worth your entire eternity; no one can hurt you so bad that you want to go to Hell because you refuse to forgive them. Forgiving hurts, growing hurts, but don’t you think that Hell is going to hurt? I’m sold, I’m going to HEAVEN.
We have all had our share of past hurts, even by people who are “in the Church”. But the thing is, a person hurt you, God didn’t hurt you. I don’t know that’s just something that has been on my mind a lot lately and I felt the need to get it off my chest. I’d rather stop cursing and start spending more time with Jesus, the Only One who can save us from this mess, then spending the rest of my life in Hell.
Nothing on earth can be enough fun to be willing to spend the rest of your life in a fiery pit of flames. Tomorrow is never promised. Talk to God today, right now. You don’t have to share with someone else for God to hear it, He hears YOU, He cares about YOU, HIS heart breaks for YOU.
Spend 10 minutes with God today, I promise you won’t regret it.
Romans 8:1- Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ, Jesus.I'm open for comments, feedback or just talking on the subject. Teressa.Grinder@yahoo.com